到底我是騙了自己，還是騙了全世界。

澳門這城市有點說不出來的混亂，不單純。

I'm not him. I don't need. I don't need what he is doing.

Never mind. I'm fine. I could just say I'm a more reserved person. If you are happy, I should bless you. Nothing is mine.

我有時候會以為，放任，就能讓我得到關注，但愈放任，其實你把距離拉遠了，因為大家心底還是喜歡純潔的女孩。但我都習慣了，說實在我也喜歡放任的自己，比較自由嘛，但是，這樣子，純潔的人就遠離我了。我是該做自己，只是我太容易受影響。

每個人都有他自己的痛苦，但不代表他能了解別人的痛苦。我還是那麼懦弱的人呀，充滿懼怕，想要愛卻又拒絕別人的示好，然而，不屬於自己的東西又追逐不停。這些日子，我想我只想聽到宋冬野的聲音，像是他會明白我的傷心一樣，只是他只是個遙遠的從不認識的人呀，人，為甚麼要從那麼觸不可及的事物得到安慰吖，是不是我們都沈溺於距離顯現的淒美。不要曝露你的憂傷吧，只有無法接近你的人才會欣賞，在你身邊的人都希望你竭盡所能笑面迎人。

"remember it's easy for anyone who has a memory. forget is difficult for those who have heart."

you are not real, you will never be free.

那一口鮮甜的五分鐘
賴床的人呀
就是貪睡了五分鐘之後再五分鐘
一不小心又再次昏頭大睡
睡過頭了

Crystal, you will never be alone, people love you! So don't be afraid of being alone.

Dear Crystal,

You are a sweet girl, with a lovely smile and a good heart.  Everyone loves you, you know that, they see how charming and special you are, they cherish you and see you as something priceless. They like to stay with you and you always cheer them up with your brightness. Though you are a bit moody when you are lonely, but that's normal and that happen to everyone. No one was born alone, everyone wants to be loved. So you don't need to think that you are weak, still, you should remind yourself that you are strong enough, you don't need to just hang around. Keep close with the persons that love you and let go for those their lives is happier without you. 

With a lot of love,

Crystal 

Too much temptation too little love.

I am a drinker with painting problems

do everything you could, just to take me home. I'm yours.