她的聲音，就在我耳邊，一直以來，都只有在擴音器發送的聲線，突如其來卻如此真實，她就在我臂彎內，她也會呼吸，就如同我也會呼吸。那些故事都是真的，確實就是整個宇宙每天都上演的故事。所有人。而他明明很想靠近，卻又走遠。有一天，所有事情都會遠去，就像迷戀著青春，肌膚卻鬆扒扒地下垂了。not trusting is not a gift. 如此荒誕，可是你樂此不疲。每個人都與生俱來一份難能可貴的禮物，別毀了，盡興吧。

the breeze will blow us all away

Dear Crystal,

Don't be afraid to change, you never know what's coming next. Let it surprise you, and it will always come in a good way. Take the adventure.

Kiss from Montemor O Novo

Crystal

To travel! To change countries!

To be forever someone else,

With a soul that has no roots,

Living only off what's it sees!

stormy weather... here and there...

#1 see the good side

#2 don't do it for love, do it with love

#3 be myself and accept who i am

very far, very far, over land and sea..

Now I'm looking at the cemetery from the window, the sun finally shows up from the cloud, there is blue in the sky again, and the sun light shining over the tomb made by marble. There is this book Forever Someone Else held in my hand, Fernando Pessoa try to comfort me with his words.

It's like a ghost that I can't kill. I can just shut my eyes and close my ears.

I'm here, I'm crystal, nice to meet you, don't give me bad name, don't give me good name, I know who I am and I'm crystal, though, it's not my real name.

到底我是騙了自己，還是騙了全世界。

澳門這城市有點說不出來的混亂，不單純。

I'm not him. I don't need. I don't need what he is doing.

Never mind. I'm fine. I could just say I'm a more reserved person. If you are happy, I should bless you. Nothing is mine.

我有時候會以為，放任，就能讓我得到關注，但愈放任，其實你把距離拉遠了，因為大家心底還是喜歡純潔的女孩。但我都習慣了，說實在我也喜歡放任的自己，比較自由嘛，但是，這樣子，純潔的人就遠離我了。我是該做自己，只是我太容易受影響。

每個人都有他自己的痛苦，但不代表他能了解別人的痛苦。我還是那麼懦弱的人呀，充滿懼怕，想要愛卻又拒絕別人的示好，然而，不屬於自己的東西又追逐不停。這些日子，我想我只想聽到宋冬野的聲音，像是他會明白我的傷心一樣，只是他只是個遙遠的從不認識的人呀，人，為甚麼要從那麼觸不可及的事物得到安慰吖，是不是我們都沈溺於距離顯現的淒美。不要曝露你的憂傷吧，只有無法接近你的人才會欣賞，在你身邊的人都希望你竭盡所能笑面迎人。

"remember it's easy for anyone who has a memory. forget is difficult for those who have heart."

you are not real, you will never be free.