I have been places, there is always somewhere makes you feel better of yourself, somewhere makes you feel worse. Some brings calm, the other brings frustration. But I've never felt belonging to any. Not even the place I was born in or the place I'm living in. No matter where I am, my room is my kingdom and I'm my own landscape. I found that I'm always missing someone afar, someone living in another city, another reality. Where is my city? I come to learn that, my city is where my heart is placed.

於城市與城市之間，流離朗蕩。總會有那麼一個地方，叫我自在，又於另一境地，變得自我厭惡。某個他方使我平靜，某個異域使我抓狂。而我知道，我並不屬於任何地方；非出生地，非居留地。即便軀體於地域上轉移，我只想留在房間，築起我的王國，自成風景。思緒落在遠方。別處、異境，總有人叫我記掛。到底哪裡是我的城市？終究在於心屬何方。

Once again. I'm like a fool.

I don't even know how to handle my jealousy.... I also wish you give me more confidence.... (at least as much as I give to you)

I miss you. But I feel that it's important to realize that feeling from time to time. So I would understand how uneasy it is to have you next to me and don't take it for granted when it happens. 

Thoughts just jump into my head. Don't stay away for too long ...

But deep down in my heart, I thank you for all the distance you keep. Discreet is a way lead me to recognize how you are truly meaningful to me. I wish I'm wiser and make you feel comfort. I wish I will never harm you. Every truthful and significant treasure won't reveal just by a glance. Lead me to be a patient one. And discover the precious pearl.

My phone is not working well again. Just like us. Must be the moon. Must be the Mercury going back backward. Sing a song. Make a wish. Wish tomorrow there is a smile on our face again. And I can kiss on your lips again. You've got me. Don't run. Don't stay in your comfort zone. My Adventurer. 

I have been places, there is always somewhere makes you feel better of yourself, somewhere makes you feel worse. Some brings calm, the other brings frustration. But I've never felt belonging to any. Not even the place I was born in or the place I'm living in. No matter where I am, my room is my kingdom and I'm my own landscape. I found that I'm always missing someone afar, someone living in another city, another reality. Where is my city? I come to learn that, my city is where my heart is placed.

於城市與城市之間，流離浪蕩。總會有那麼一個地方，叫我自在，又於另一境地，變得自我厭惡。某個他方使我平靜，某個異域使我抓狂。而我知道，我並不屬於任何地方；非出生地，非居留地。即便軀體於地域上轉移，我只想留在房間，築起我的王國，自成風景。思緒落在遠方。別處、異境，總有人叫我記掛。到底哪裡是我的城市？終究在於心屬何方。

2014/11/17

If art is the only important thing for now, so then I won't still be lingering. It's going backward but it's actually going forward, forward to the dream we've ever dreamt. Nothing we can foresee. But we have now. We don't have the whole other self. But we emerge. Space and distance, if detachment could really help. What if I doubt. All and all, I just want to believe. Believe in the eternity of the fragments, the tender lips, and the heart beat.